Absence
So I’ve been ‘gone’ for quite a while, seven and a half months in fact. There’s so many reasons for it, but the main one was just reaching the end of the path in regards to personal development, at least the absorbing of.
I came to the conclusion that the next step was to put everything I’ve learnt into action, and of course the first question is HOW?!? If you are familiar with Steve Pavlina’s triangle then you’ll understand when I say my weakest point is power. Truth I’ve very strong in, Love is up there too and I see Unity everywhere, but the essence of Power as well as Courage and Authority escape me regularly.
So I’m back, and I’m concentrating on improving my power. I’ve started planning and taking action on those plans and the outcomes have been quite inspiring. As I can see myself progressing towards my goals it inspires me to take even more action towards more of them. And it’s been a long time coming.
I’ve made a yearly-goal list and I use that to do up a weekly plan. Everything is planned out, work, travel, exercise, chores and even my free time. It’s strangely liberating to see a giant block just labelled “Relax”, and you know that because you’ve followed the rest of the plan, you’ve earned it. I’ve progressed on some projects that I’ve been working on. Just by having the plan I accomplish at least five times more than I would otherwise.
Other news include getting a job, going to Pinang in a week and general life craziness.
But for now, I’m exercising my Power, and you can too. How could you take action on something today?
Creating Value
What is value?
Value is the act of giving another, something that is useful for them that they then don’t have to go out and get themselves. That something can be a gift/object, or a deed/action, or even just a kind word. Anything that they value for themselves, is something of value.
What’s the main problem with value?
People are selfish. Except that’s a catch 22 right there.
How does anything get done if everyone is selfish and out for themselves?
Because humans create value. It’s their natural expression. Look at a child and they will do lots to give as much value to people around them as they can, without expecting anything in return.
Later, you have the rise of cynicism. You give value, and you lose something. Or you expect value in return and get nothing. An expectation is dashed and the expression of giving value is lessened. This leads to people pulling back and not giving everyone around them everything they have. The seed of nongiving has been planted, and it is watered and fed by unkind deeds and lack of value. This nonvalue spreads like a virus, as people don’t give value to others, also do others refuse to give value in return, and the problem grows. It’s affecting us as a society, because together we can’t give value. Societies can’t give value to it’s people or other societies.
As for personal value, due to personal selfishness people value those who give them value. As people are naturally inclined to give value, even those who are selfish, if you are someone who allows yourself to give value freely, you will be valued by other people. Friends value you because your friendship with them gives them something they can’t get otherwise. You are friends with them for the same reason. Friendships, in fact all relationships, breakdown when one person stops giving value into the friendship. As much as people would always like to blame the other person, it’s always when there’s no value being input from one side. People don’t feel valued if they don’t receive value and stop giving their own value. Simply: Value begets value, nonvalue begets nonvalue. In a situation like this, check to see if you are the one which has stopped giving value, and if so, give it. If you aren’t, give some value anyways. If after you have given value for a time nothing changes, you’ve done your best and it’s time to move on.
It takes a lot of courage to give value and expect nothing in return. It can feel sickening, like you are giving away a part of yourself, but in the long run it’s the only thing that’s going to get this world back to a state of peace. If we can give value to our enemies we can give value to anyone, and that value will flow into the future, into the lives of the children, and eventually into the life of the world. It’s not going to be an easy task by far, and it’s going to take a long road of years, but it’s really the only path.
So, how could you give value to others today?
Suprising Unity Meditation
I was reading a post, as you do, about flow and just discovered a unity meditation that I had no idea about.
I started by picturing a figure, made of light, surrounded by stars, patterns and music. It was rather peaceful and serene. Then all of a sudden, the figure breaks apart above the surface of the world that fades in. Millions of figures break from the one made from light and spread around the world, one for each person, and one for me. As these figures landed on the earth, as the energy of the people that live here, I knew that we are all one, we are all from this single being of light, we are all connected.
Updates on Things
Wow. It’s been a long time.
I could say I’ve been busy, or slack, or distracted, but it’s really a complicated mess of all these, plus wanting to say something grand, but not sure how.
For now though: Personal updates.
I stopped polyphasic sleep after day 14. I would follow the pattern for a week, then crash out terribly. I would sleep through the alarm, or turn it off in my sleep, no matter what I tried to do. The tiredness was also getting to me, I so wasn’t used to it.
I will probably try it again though. I don’t know when, but soon. Along with going raw vegan again. I just got so much value out of doing both, or it could have just been the fact they were so different.
My daily goals are progressing slowly, I’m experiencing a lot of resistance and procrastination. I’m going to create a schedule and stick to it, and see what happens from there.
Lastly: I want to also do some really long article type posts. I’ve gathered up a few deep topics I would like to speak on, and I may as well just get started. Here goes nothing, as they say.
Polyphasic Sleep Day 5
Wow, this is hard. One of the hardest things I’ve done. It’s day 5, from when I started, unfortunately I crashed hard on day 3, sleeping through my alarm in the morning for a total of 7 hours. That will set me back, but I’m not sure by how much.
Right now I’m kind of going between really, really lethargic to normal and back again. I’m falling asleep fast during the naps, and I wake up fast too, often 1-2 minutes before the alarm goes off, but I can really tell that my body/mind hasn’t adjusted yet.
The suprising thing is the psychological impact. There’s no more break between the days, that’s the most weird part. Life now feels like one continuous stream, rather than being broken up into a series of days or weeks. The question is then: “What am I going to do right now?” instead of “What am I going to do today?”, because without a nightly reboot, time just keeps going. The naps feel more like time outs than proper sleeps, but perhaps when I’m adjusted to them, they’ll be a little more concrete. If this is the case, then days, nights, and planning over a period of months is just a mind construct made to prevent us from being as effective as possible. I know that the present moment is the only one we can actually use to make a difference, but now I’m intensly starting to experience it.
The other thing I noticed, like when I was on the raw diet, your mind likes to play tricks on you, test your resolve. Giving you lines like “This could be bad for you!” or “Just sleep for another couple of hours, noone will know.” Right now I think the main thing that’s keeping me going through all of the lethargy and tiredness is knowing that there’s an end, and getting there requires being present and taking it one moment at a time. I know I won’t consciously sabotage myself at this point, but lets see what’s stronger: my will, or my subconscious.
Also: Yes, if this does get too much, or I break down, I will quit, but I’m nowhere near that point yet. Right now I’m focussing on using all of my will to keep to the schedule and all of my presense to listen to my body. So it’s going really well, but it’s still hard, as all the best things in life are.